When you're really frustrated, and you're not entirely sure why, it's really easy to start an "I'd be happy if" list. Making a list makes you feel like you're doing something. But really, making the list is a distraction from actually addressing the frustration.
It's hard work to look inward. It's hard work to let the internal monologue run its course and listen long enough to find a truth.
It can even feel like the things that help are distractions. I'd be happy if...
I'd be happy if all my bills were taken care of. I'd be happy if I could get a full night's sleep. I'd be happy if I went to yoga.
Yes, all those things may be true. Trouble is that the perspective doesn't accept the present. Would and if are innately future looking words. So how about this?
I am happiness.